On being cheated on

you want the world to engulf you in the mollycoddled pink niceness
you want options to emerge under your feet
declarations of love from strangers, auto drivers who are nice
every gesture leading to a flower like in a nokia ad
you want perpetrators to weep and laugh with you as you desire
you want everyone at the table to breathe a sigh and say..
its over, we know, lets just give up on this and eat
you want prawns cooked in white wine, sushi that melts in your mouth
stars that are suddenly closer to your eyes
people you are distant from to suddenly become friends
all others to stop and clap when you enter a room
with their eyes to reach into you, to forget their own problems
or to tell you their problems when you need to be distracted
you want dance parties and rock shows, you want
bangalore music bands to improve dramatically and move you with music
you want to meet a funny jack black, with so much wit and intelligence
that it boils out like fat under his clothes and that it shreds all men before...
you want a woman .. not a woman to talk to, those are terrible
but to hold, whose clit to discover and roll in your tongue .. to whom
you will do all those secrets learnt and kept hidden..

instead you get measured goodness and silence

One night in Pattaya and the world's your oyster

There are often not the most handsome of all, they are usually in the later years of their life, they are bald, unattractive and quite lonely in their own society. When they came to Patpong, they are struck with first not hard core prostitution, not a deal, not a thing that they're accustomed to in the West. But they are struck with girls who are all over them, who are trying to establish a relationship and display physical attraction to them. - which i think would be very confusing for a man in that position, when they are not accustomed to receiving that kind of play.

One night in Bangkok makes a hard man humble
Not much between despair and ecstasy

Darling,
It must be 1:10 AM in Bangkok and I am thinking of you. You must be sleeping now (I hope..). Its 7:10 PM in France and I am sitting in my office at the end of a long working day and feeling very lonely and missing you very much. I will soon go home but nobody is waiting for me. So I will cook myself a lonely meal and maybe watch TV a little, and think of you a lot. Why can't we be together?

The bars are temples but the pearls ain't free
You'll find a god in every golden cloister
And if you're lucky then the god's a she
I can feel an angel sliding up to me

I know it is possible if we try together, even if I take you with me to Germany, what I really do, when I am sure about your love to me! Can you remember when the old woman who lives at your sister's house near your room said when we visited her? She said I should take you with me to Germany. But at this moment I could only laugh about it, and now I think about to do it, that's why I'm crazy, crazy about you.

Whaddya mean? Ya seen one crowded, polluted, stinking town --

Because Thailand have a very good heart, very good take careand the man fall in love. She tell him anything to fall in love. But when the man go away, he doesn't know what she do. She says, "I'm not butterfly. Send me money." Farang man says, "Farang lady don't take care. Big hole." Like that.

Get Thai'd! You're talking to a tourist
Whose every move's among the purest
I get my kicks above the waistline, sunshine

I know some Thai people married to guys. Guess thats what we all want, long time love. You are very sexy pretty lady, very sexy ways, and bet you are a good fucker. I am a big man, my cock is very big and is looking for a Thai wife to fuck forever and have a baby.

It's a drag, it's a bore, it's really such a pity
To be looking at the board, not looking at the city

(Excerpts from Hello my big, big honey: Love letters to Bangkok Bar girls and their revealing interviews)

Mood: Monogamy amongst penguins and thai hos.. what next will put me between rolling my eyes and sighing
Music: One night in Bangkok, Abba version

Butterfly: slang for person who sleeps around
Farang: firang